Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Like a Sunset

"God, make me like a sunset, please."

I asked this of Him recently. The funny thing is that it was the middle of a cloudy day where the sun wasn't even visible and a sunset still five hours away. You're probably thinking, "The funny thing is, Jessica, that you even thought to ask such a question! A sunset? Really?"

Hold on to your galloping animal (and I know you've got one, because everyone has a water buffalo) and let me attempt to explain what I was thinking when I asked this interesting question of God.

First, let me explain. No. There is not enough time. Let me sum up. :) (Princess Bride quote right there.)
I have been feeling rather peaceful as of late. Maybe it is simply because I have settled into my schedule, but I think it's because God knew I needed some peace. The constant hustle of life has not changed, in fact, it has increased, but I came to the realization that my fairly busy schedule should not be something in my life that stands in the way of peace. Peace is not sipping lemonade in a beach chair in Florida with a gentle breeze and a bright sun. Nor is it Christmas break when you have nothing to do. True peace is a peace of heart, no matter what the situation. So I have peace. Moving on to the sunset part.

I was talking to God, and thanking Him for this incredible peace when I had this strong desire for something else. And I knew what it was. "God, I am grateful for this peace I have, but I need passion too." For me, peace of heart without passion for God is laziness. I needed a passion that would light me on fire for all things Christ. Fire like a sunset.

A sunset is both peaceful and passionate. Its beauty is both still and fiery. Gentle and bold. Quiet, yet its very color announces its presence. Its passionate brilliance is peacefully loud.

What could be more passionate and peaceful than a sunset? A sunrise is peaceful, but in my opinion, it lacks the passion of the day.

So, you see, I wanted to be like a sunset to claim a brilliant passion for the cross while living peacefully.

God, make me like a sunset that burns in peace and passion both.

Monday, December 5, 2011

For Us

"Who has believed our message? To whom has the Lord revealed his powerful arm? My servant grew up in the Lord's presence like a tender green shoot; like a root in dry ground. There was nothing beautiful or majestic about his appearance, nothing to attract us to him.
He was despised and rejected--a man of sorrows, acquainted with deepest grief. We turned out backs on him and looked the other way. He was despised and we did not care. Yet it was our weaknesses he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins! But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed."
Isaiah 53:1-5

God came to earth, knowing that we would reject him, and eventually kill him. He sent his precious son into earth as a helpless baby boy that first Christmas long ago, knowing that we would break his heart so that our hearts could become whole.
Every time I read these verses I am awed by the sacrifice God made to "save a wretch like me." He didn't have to save me; I certainly didn't deserve it. But He loves me. This powerful love inspires tears of gratitude to a God who will carry me and protect me and love me forever.

And then I want to do something for Him, yet all He asks of me is to love Him back. During the Christmas season I am reminded of this indescribable sacrifice God made because of the powerful love He has for me.

Don't forget this Christmas of the tiny bundle of love sent to earth to be the Savior of the world--Jesus Christ.